unmotivated

so ha I'm running a library right now that is set to be closed and at least two of us (yes myself and one other) are probably going to be layed off. Or is that laid? Who cares? Yep that's how I feel. I have no work to do and can't quite figure out what I'm going to do next with my life. The Library is falling apart because nobody cares. I do care but I can't manage a staff who is over it.

Of course I"m still really sick so I'm super tired and ready to break into tears at any moment.

I have a group of 30 kids coming in in about 30 minutes so I will be forced to pull it together and read stories and sing songs. Of course I'll be hacking my brains out as well.

I can figure out how to pass my time for a bit while I'm out of work:

1. back to the gym
2. painting more of my house
3. Re-connecting with Project Basho
4. hopefully some travel
5. working on a children's book

But, I will be on a tight budget and I have no idea what I want to do with my future...now. I really liked being a librarian and I have a masters degree (the debt to prove it) in a very specialized field. But, I just bought a house in a city that will no longer have librarian jobs available!

yikes!